This is the perfect time to learn meditation. You have all this time on your hands and more stress than a little bit. You want a quick fix, unfortunately no such thing exists. The upside is you could start meditating then maybe you can shake the need to hurry up and get over something.
I'm like you, when I first started I had no idea what to do. I couldn't get my thoughts to stop so I gave up on mediation. I have a friend that benefited greatly from meditation so I hit her up so I could figure out how she was able to do it. She sent Shelah Marie's Meditation Mix Tape. This is my favorite mixtape! If you recognize the name it may be because she recently married rapper AceHood. She got hime started on his yoga and meditation journey. Shelah looks like me and knows how to guide a home girl to zen! Below is one of the guided meditations I used when Coronavirs first started feeling scary.
Londrell is another favorite! He very recently released his Self Care Package guided meditation that'll give you 7 days worth of mediations to take care of yourself. He also sprinkles in Affirmations. Originally I wasn't a affirmation fan but a few practices with them and they make tons of sense.